Friends really are the cure for everything.

Do you ever have those days (sometimes weeks or months) where all you want to do is stay in bed and sleep and maybe watch an episode or ten of your favourite TV show? Well, that's been my life for the last few months. Not only have I been sick - which is very rare - I've also been feeling sad and depressed and there really isn't much I can do to fix it. Except maybe be with my friends. I'm always happiest when I'm with my friends (or my dogs, but I don't want to seem strange to you). we laugh and talk and have a good time. I know they will always be there for me and I love that more than anything. They are important to me and I know people say that you won't be friends with the people you know when you're young, but I want these people to be in my life forever. They encourage me and stop me from doing stupid things (which I do often) and they listen when I really need someone to talk to. Friends are your unofficial family and I love them so much. I am so grateful to have them there for me. We hung out yesterday - which feels like forever since we last did - and it was a lot of fun. We went to the movies and then danced (not in a club, we were playing video games. We're not that cool). And we talked. It was simple but it was exactly what I needed to help me feel a bit better about my life. So, I just wanted to thank my friends for everything they've done and for putting up with someone who's so difficult. It warms my heart, it puts a smile on my face and it makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.

Work Romance.

Is relationships at work acceptable? I mean, work is a great place to meet new people, get to know people and see if you're connected with someone, but is it really a good idea? I've seen so many times where couples who work together ad break up, usually end up fighting. Not exactly ideal for a work place. Now, most employees would be smart and leave all of that at home and outside work, but often it comes back in. See, I'm only speaking of this because I recently got employed and there is someone at work I may like just a bit. We'll call him Mike. Now, Mike is really nice and funny and we have a lot in common. But where is the limit? Am I supposed to be okay with liking a co worker, or should I push feelings aside and focus on work? What do you think?

I think I met my future husband yesterday.

Alright, so maybe not, but a girl can dream, right? Anyways, yesterday I got to spend the whole day with the beautiful Misha Collins. If you don't know who that is, do you live under a rock or something? He plays Castiel on Supernatural. And I, along with 299 other people, got to spend a whole day with him trying to break a world record. We got there and he showed up, giving us instructions and making us laugh. Our goal was to get into teams of 20 and make a safety pin chain and which ever team made the long, and used the most safety pins won a special prize. We had to do this all in 29 minute and 18 seconds. We also had to polka dance when we heard music playing...and a few people got to even polka dance with Misha. While we all got to work, he came around to chat with the groups. When he came to my group - I really don't want to sound all 'oh, it was so hot' or perverted - but his crotch was like 5 inches away from my head. Again, I'm not perverted, but this was him we're talking about. Then we got to measure our chains and my team won. We have over 3000 while all the other teams had like 2500. So we got the special prize...with was picking up the safety pins! Woo hoo! You're just lucky you are who you are or I'd never do it! After that, the winning team got to have a picture with him. By that time, it was raining and I was soaking wet. After the picture, me and my friend went up to him and got a picture each before they shooed everyone away so we were lucky. And that was pretty much my day. I can honestly say, that he was one of the nicest, most funniest, most carefree person I have ever met. I would love to meet him again one day, and maybe if I finish school and do become an actress then we might work together. I'd enjoy that. I have to admit, though. The only reason I was able to do this was because my friend from Germany said that they were doing it and it was only for GISHWHES (largest scavenger hunt in the entire world) people and since I didn't sign up for it, I had no idea about it. But since she didn't live in Vancouver, she wasn't able to attend and told me about it. So I have to give thanks to her. I owe her everything because he is one of my idols. He's perfect and it's because of her I got to meet him.

Some New Information.

So, my mum just came to me and told me that my dad has a chance to get a new job and to make $55 an hour, which would be $10,000 a month, which is a lot. The only problem is that we'd have to move somewhere up north. So that means I leave all my friends behind and I might not get to go to the school that I want to go to. So I don't know what to do and it's scaring me because I don't want to leave my friends and my maybe new school, but this could be a better life for my family and I'm upset. I wish I could get both, stay here and take the money and still have my friend and my potential new school. Sigh.

Summer.

Summer has been really boring. Extremely hot, though. I'm sitting here right now and my clothes are sticking to me from all the heat earlier today. It's starting to cool down, which is really nice, but it's still kind of hot. Nothing special has happened since my last post, but that's okay because I can just write one sentence and it would be good enough. There is one thing I do want to mention. And it's very important, so remember this. Internet friends are real friends. I've met lots of people online that I consider friends Just because we can't talk face to face does not mean we don't get along. Doesn't mean we don't have deep conversations. So please, if someone says that they have internet friends, don't say they don't count as friends. Because they do. They really do.

Best friends

I don't think I've ever felt more blessed than I did today for my friends. We watched a movie today, a sad one, and it got us thinking about our school days. About how we're glad we didn't have cliques. We were glad that our bully problem wasn't so bad. Then we shared memories together. Camp in grade 7. Canoeing. Archery. How a popular girl was our friend. Just proper funny moments. Then we started talking about people we never liked it school. Friend: I think she was only mean because she was so short. It was surprisingly fun. But then we got into how my friend felt so bad because she was bullied. I mentioned my depression. I told them how I felt bad when no one believed me. I felt even worse when they made fun of the fact that 'I thought I had depression'. They did give me helpful things. Then we talked some more. Then I told them something I've only told one other person. I told them that I used to cut myself. They listened to everything and said they were so incredibly proud of me for stopping and told me I was strong. It made me feel good. But I wanted to cry. Yes, I'm emotional. But it brought back memories and feelings I had when I was doing that and it made me feel bad again. Anyways, I was just thankful that they didn't judge me and I am so happy that I could have friends like that around me and will support me and lead me on the right path. So, even though you'll never see this, my friends, you are two of the most important people in my entire life and I never want to lose you both. Thank you and I love you.