Pregnant...really?

Okay, so today I found out some news. My sister's friend is pregnant. Now, normally I would be happy, but honestly, I'm not. And I'm not a bad person for not being happy, it's just she's not ready to be having a baby right now. Mostly because she's only 19. I have no idea what it is, but lately everyone under the age of 20 has been having babies. I think about fifty of them in the past year have all had babies, and they're still in the age range where their age still has the word "teen" in it. Now, if I'm not mistaken, I think that's horrible. Not to mention that my sister's friend isn't only 19, but she isn't even in a relationship with the father. No, I know that's not important but when you're that young, I think maybe it is. I know how fast people come and go in her life, is he going to be another one? It just angers me because she's the only one working and she isn't even making that much money. I mean, she has to always beg my mum for food. How is she supposed to pay for a baby? She can get a crib and all that stuff from her sisters, but diapers and food and all the other stuff he needs to buy herself, well that's expensive and she can't do that if she can barely feed herself. I even heard her tell my mum that she wasn't ready to have a baby, she was too young. Good, at least she understands that. Hopefully she will do the right thing here and give it for adoption. Maybe have a baby when she's older and has the money to actually take care of it.

Bad Day Gone Better (A Bit)

You know when you wake up in the morning and you just feel like today is going to be a really crappy day? Yeah, I didn't get that feeling when I got fired from my job. I was working all day, doing everything good, and sure, maybe I wasn't the best at it, but I tried hard and I understood 99% of things. Then, about five minutes before my shift ends I get told that I'm fired. Do you even know how horrible that is? And they won't even give me a reason why they fired me. Apparently, they don't have to tell me why which is complete and utter bullshit. Luckily, I didn't cry like everyone else did, but I noticed that the assistant manager couldn't even look at me while I was being fired. Good. I hope she felt bad. Luckily, after that, my mum and I went to the mall and then my sister and her friend invited me to the movies to cheer me up, which it did. So, maybe it wasn't all too bad.

Took A While.

It's been a while, huh? Well, I don't remember what the last thing I wrote was so I'll just blab on about everything. Well, job, it's been good, I guess. The guy I liked quit because he is now going to school so that sucks. I got a new tattoo, angel wings on my back, and this wee I'm getting about 4-6 more. I also decided that I want to get my whole arm done, but that is a decision I need to think about for a bit longer because once I do it, I can't go back. Also, my old best friend from high school wants to get together so that's nice.

Some New Information.

So, my mum just came to me and told me that my dad has a chance to get a new job and to make $55 an hour, which would be $10,000 a month, which is a lot. The only problem is that we'd have to move somewhere up north. So that means I leave all my friends behind and I might not get to go to the school that I want to go to. So I don't know what to do and it's scaring me because I don't want to leave my friends and my maybe new school, but this could be a better life for my family and I'm upset. I wish I could get both, stay here and take the money and still have my friend and my potential new school. Sigh.

Summer.

Summer has been really boring. Extremely hot, though. I'm sitting here right now and my clothes are sticking to me from all the heat earlier today. It's starting to cool down, which is really nice, but it's still kind of hot. Nothing special has happened since my last post, but that's okay because I can just write one sentence and it would be good enough. There is one thing I do want to mention. And it's very important, so remember this. Internet friends are real friends. I've met lots of people online that I consider friends Just because we can't talk face to face does not mean we don't get along. Doesn't mean we don't have deep conversations. So please, if someone says that they have internet friends, don't say they don't count as friends. Because they do. They really do.

Dear Friend....

Dear friend - I am so sorry that this happened to you. I am so sorry that I couldn't be there for you to stop you. I'm just thankful someone else was and I am forever grateful for that person. I'm not going to ask why you tried to take your own life because I get it. I get how you felt. Lonely. Upset. Forgotten. Worthless. Like you'll never amount to anything. Like the world would be better off without you. I understand, I really do, so I'm not mad at you for doing it. I'm just mad that you didn't feel like you could talk to me about it. I've told you before that you can talk to me about anything and I'll always listen without judging you. I would never judge you. I swear. I want you to know that, when you get out of the hospital, you can talk to me without being embarrassed or scared I'll leave because I wont. I want you to tell me everything. Every bad little detail of your life, every sad emotion you're feeling. I want to know. I want to compliment you and show you that you are such a beautiful person who deserves all the happiness a person can get. You deserve a life where death doesn't run through your mind every single day. I want you to be happy and love life, even if it's not easy. Then again, it wouldn't be life if it was just easy, now would it? But right now I only want to know that you're okay. Even if you're weak, laying in a hospital bed, I just want to know your heart is still beating, that you're still breathing. I love you friend, I really do. Please, let me help.

First Post From New Laptop.

I got a new laptop a week ago, I think. Thank God. I desperately needed one because my other one didn't work anymore for some reason, but it sucks because I have all my stories and songs on that computer and I have to somehow transfer them over to this computer without wifi. Oh, well. I still am thankful. Also, I made a new friend. He's nice and quite a bit like me actually. It's scary. I don't actually know him in real life but I met him online and I think they count as friends too so shut up if you don't. We constantly talk and surprisingly he hasn't gotten bored of me yet.

Annoyance and ear bleeding....Weird Combo.

My sister is starting to piss me off more and more. First, she hasn't been home for 6 days! She's been spending it all with her boyfriend. Usually, I don't mind but that's when it's one or two days. Not 6. And now I find out that she's lying to her best friend. Best friend (BF): I asked her to hang out today and she said she was going home. That was at like 12. Me: She's not home.... BF:I'm not surprised. Do you even know how wrong that it? Chicks before dicks, girl! She also said yesterday that she would be home tomorrow after my aunts house but she never came home. We also have to go to our grandmas tomorrow for Easter and they only way she'll go is if her boyfriend can come. Which is pathetic because it's family. She's been doing this a lot lately, spending more time with her boyfriend. Me:You have to come home today, okay? Sis:I'll see what boyfriend wants to do today. Seriously? You don't need to fucking see what he wants to do today, we haven't seen you in 6 days, just come home by yourself! Also, I woke up this morning and my ear was bleeding. Don't worry, it wasn't the inside of my ear. It was the part where I have my tragus pierced. I changed it the other day for the first time.