Friends really are the cure for everything.

Do you ever have those days (sometimes weeks or months) where all you want to do is stay in bed and sleep and maybe watch an episode or ten of your favourite TV show? Well, that's been my life for the last few months. Not only have I been sick - which is very rare - I've also been feeling sad and depressed and there really isn't much I can do to fix it. Except maybe be with my friends. I'm always happiest when I'm with my friends (or my dogs, but I don't want to seem strange to you). we laugh and talk and have a good time. I know they will always be there for me and I love that more than anything. They are important to me and I know people say that you won't be friends with the people you know when you're young, but I want these people to be in my life forever. They encourage me and stop me from doing stupid things (which I do often) and they listen when I really need someone to talk to. Friends are your unofficial family and I love them so much. I am so grateful to have them there for me. We hung out yesterday - which feels like forever since we last did - and it was a lot of fun. We went to the movies and then danced (not in a club, we were playing video games. We're not that cool). And we talked. It was simple but it was exactly what I needed to help me feel a bit better about my life. So, I just wanted to thank my friends for everything they've done and for putting up with someone who's so difficult. It warms my heart, it puts a smile on my face and it makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.

Work Romance.

Is relationships at work acceptable? I mean, work is a great place to meet new people, get to know people and see if you're connected with someone, but is it really a good idea? I've seen so many times where couples who work together ad break up, usually end up fighting. Not exactly ideal for a work place. Now, most employees would be smart and leave all of that at home and outside work, but often it comes back in. See, I'm only speaking of this because I recently got employed and there is someone at work I may like just a bit. We'll call him Mike. Now, Mike is really nice and funny and we have a lot in common. But where is the limit? Am I supposed to be okay with liking a co worker, or should I push feelings aside and focus on work? What do you think?

It's been a while.

It's been a while and I apologize. I just haven't been feeling like the writing mood. I even haven't updated any stories I've written in over a month! But, here I am. Let's see, what can I write about today? Oh, well I have something. Break ups. Are they really that bad? My sister broke up with her boyfriend and for two weeks all she did was cry. She stopped eating and talking to people and coming out of her room. She just cried and cried. Why are break up's that bad? Why can't people just realize that maybe they don't love you anymore and move on? Just accept it. If they don't love you than they're not worth your time. Also, my sister does tend to stalk him a bit, which I think is a bit pathetic. She stopped most of it now, but back then it was weird. So, tell me, how bad are you when it comes to break ups?

Break Ups

Are relationships really that hard? I mean, right now I'm listening to my sister cry her eyes out because her boyfriend broke up with her and she doesn't know why. She's a mess right now. She won't stop crying and she hasn't eaten in a few days and she's locked herself in her room. I don't want to be mean, but she's being a little needy about this whole thing. She's trying to message him and trying to contact him and she shouldn't do that. But I guess that's what happens when you're in love, right? You feel like the whole world is nothing but a big ball of disappointment and nothing seems to go right. I feel like that all the time - just without the broken heart.

Dear Friend....

Dear friend - I am so sorry that this happened to you. I am so sorry that I couldn't be there for you to stop you. I'm just thankful someone else was and I am forever grateful for that person. I'm not going to ask why you tried to take your own life because I get it. I get how you felt. Lonely. Upset. Forgotten. Worthless. Like you'll never amount to anything. Like the world would be better off without you. I understand, I really do, so I'm not mad at you for doing it. I'm just mad that you didn't feel like you could talk to me about it. I've told you before that you can talk to me about anything and I'll always listen without judging you. I would never judge you. I swear. I want you to know that, when you get out of the hospital, you can talk to me without being embarrassed or scared I'll leave because I wont. I want you to tell me everything. Every bad little detail of your life, every sad emotion you're feeling. I want to know. I want to compliment you and show you that you are such a beautiful person who deserves all the happiness a person can get. You deserve a life where death doesn't run through your mind every single day. I want you to be happy and love life, even if it's not easy. Then again, it wouldn't be life if it was just easy, now would it? But right now I only want to know that you're okay. Even if you're weak, laying in a hospital bed, I just want to know your heart is still beating, that you're still breathing. I love you friend, I really do. Please, let me help.

Best friends

I don't think I've ever felt more blessed than I did today for my friends. We watched a movie today, a sad one, and it got us thinking about our school days. About how we're glad we didn't have cliques. We were glad that our bully problem wasn't so bad. Then we shared memories together. Camp in grade 7. Canoeing. Archery. How a popular girl was our friend. Just proper funny moments. Then we started talking about people we never liked it school. Friend: I think she was only mean because she was so short. It was surprisingly fun. But then we got into how my friend felt so bad because she was bullied. I mentioned my depression. I told them how I felt bad when no one believed me. I felt even worse when they made fun of the fact that 'I thought I had depression'. They did give me helpful things. Then we talked some more. Then I told them something I've only told one other person. I told them that I used to cut myself. They listened to everything and said they were so incredibly proud of me for stopping and told me I was strong. It made me feel good. But I wanted to cry. Yes, I'm emotional. But it brought back memories and feelings I had when I was doing that and it made me feel bad again. Anyways, I was just thankful that they didn't judge me and I am so happy that I could have friends like that around me and will support me and lead me on the right path. So, even though you'll never see this, my friends, you are two of the most important people in my entire life and I never want to lose you both. Thank you and I love you.

Happy Birthday me!

Well, it was my birthday today...or yesterday seeing as it's 12:24AM. It was a good day overall. I got a new tragus piercing jewellery, which I can't get the original one out so I was going to maybe go tomorrow to get it out professionally, I got a new DVD...Diary of a Wimpy Kid...yes, those are brilliant movies. (Hello, Devon Bostick) And well, that's it. But my mum and I went looking around the mall today so that was fun. She even bought me a cake! Then, a few days ago, my cousin came over with my aunt and they got me a cool tote bag with a TARDIS on it (You know, from Doctor Who) that had 2 buttons on them. I loved it! Anyways, I enjoyed it.

Sex & Babies

I've seen at least 20 or more people on Facebook who've announced they're having babies in the past year (2012). I'm not saying it's a bad thing, lots of people have babies, but most of these people are my age or younger. I'm 20. Now, my mom had me at 20, and I don't think 20 is too young to have a baby but when you're 15 and pregnant than I think that's not good. Does anyone else remember the days where people waited to have sex, where people had babies after they were 25? Yeah, me neither. I don't like to judge people, I try not to, but it's so hard when I check Facebook every day and see pictures of these young girls with big bellies. It's sad. Very few people do still decide that they want to wait until marriage to have sex and I'm behind them on that. I'm planning on waiting until marriage, if not than waiting for someone I really love. I'm not going to throw it away just to get it over with. I get one chance to lose my virginity and that's it. I'm going to make it special. Besides, I believe that we learn from our parents. So if these kids know that their parents had sex at a young age they might think it's okay and they might do it. Which could lead to having a baby at a young age. Especially when the person is 12. 12, I think and I'm sure a lot of you would agree, is way to young to be having sex. It's like you're trying to grow up too fast. I don't want to criticize or offend anyone but this is just my opinion. If anyone out there does have sex at a young age, don't get upset about this. It's just what I think. Just one person. One ordinary girl.