Bad Day Gone Better (A Bit)

You know when you wake up in the morning and you just feel like today is going to be a really crappy day? Yeah, I didn't get that feeling when I got fired from my job. I was working all day, doing everything good, and sure, maybe I wasn't the best at it, but I tried hard and I understood 99% of things. Then, about five minutes before my shift ends I get told that I'm fired. Do you even know how horrible that is? And they won't even give me a reason why they fired me. Apparently, they don't have to tell me why which is complete and utter bullshit. Luckily, I didn't cry like everyone else did, but I noticed that the assistant manager couldn't even look at me while I was being fired. Good. I hope she felt bad. Luckily, after that, my mum and I went to the mall and then my sister and her friend invited me to the movies to cheer me up, which it did. So, maybe it wasn't all too bad.

Working Sucks.

I finally got myself a job, and yes, I am quite proud of myself. I aced the interview (the guy told me he liked me and we even bonded over White Spot and acting) and he said he'd called me soon if I got it. Well, two hours later, he called me. I got the job. I'm not gonna lie, I was nervous to start, but I was happy that I was finally going to be able to make my own money and save up to move out or move to England. But then, when I went in for training, I got sat down in the dining hall and had to watch over 20 videos, and I'm not even done yet! I had no problem with that, but then it got scary. There was so much things I have to remember. I have to remember how to make 20 different kind of coffee's and 30 different kinds of sandwiches and 10 different kinds of soups. I was just thankful for cafeteria! Because of that, it helped me understand a lot of the stuff - not including the food stuff - so I didn't need to worry about remembering that. But that's not the worst part. My sister works there. On her first day, she got shown around, introduced to staff and learned how to punch in. Then, her friend started today and learned all that as well. But, yesterday, when it was my first time there, I didn't. I didn't learn any of that and that kind of pisses me off. They didn't show me any of that and they are supposed to so now I have to go in tomorrow and tell them they need to show me. Me and my sister like to joke that the reason they're not showing me is because they're going to fire me because apparently some places don't like you working with your sibling. A part of me hopes that's right because I hate working there. But another part hopes that's not true because I need a job. I really do. It's just not fair that I'm not being taught anything while all the other new employee's are.

Childhood Toys.

There is this teddy bear I had, named Mr. Bear, and recently I had to get rid of it because it was kind of disgusting. It sat beside my bed for years and I finally decided that it was time to get rid of it. I was more heartbroken then I thought I would be. It was just a teddy bear. Just a toy. Yet, it hurt so much seeing it being thrown away like it was nothing. But it wasn't nothing. It was part of my childhood and I can never get it back. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who has felt like that when having to throw away a childhood toy, right?

Dear Friend....

Dear friend - I am so sorry that this happened to you. I am so sorry that I couldn't be there for you to stop you. I'm just thankful someone else was and I am forever grateful for that person. I'm not going to ask why you tried to take your own life because I get it. I get how you felt. Lonely. Upset. Forgotten. Worthless. Like you'll never amount to anything. Like the world would be better off without you. I understand, I really do, so I'm not mad at you for doing it. I'm just mad that you didn't feel like you could talk to me about it. I've told you before that you can talk to me about anything and I'll always listen without judging you. I would never judge you. I swear. I want you to know that, when you get out of the hospital, you can talk to me without being embarrassed or scared I'll leave because I wont. I want you to tell me everything. Every bad little detail of your life, every sad emotion you're feeling. I want to know. I want to compliment you and show you that you are such a beautiful person who deserves all the happiness a person can get. You deserve a life where death doesn't run through your mind every single day. I want you to be happy and love life, even if it's not easy. Then again, it wouldn't be life if it was just easy, now would it? But right now I only want to know that you're okay. Even if you're weak, laying in a hospital bed, I just want to know your heart is still beating, that you're still breathing. I love you friend, I really do. Please, let me help.

Stupid Facebook.

I tried logging onto my facebook but they locked my account. Now, I don't usually mind but they said there was no verification methods so I can't really attempt to log back in. It really sucks. Facebook really needs to start improving because people are starting to complain. Like for instance. I think it's ridiculous that you can only have one account. Some people need two in case they want to give an internet friend one and they don't really want their personal one out there yet. Or maybe they want one work one and one personal one. It's stupid. Also, they need to stop blocking out people randomly. And one last thing, fake accounts like to add people and report them. I think that's bullshit. Facebook is so complicated sometimes and they really need to get it fixed because people are starting to hate it.