Friends really are the cure for everything.

Do you ever have those days (sometimes weeks or months) where all you want to do is stay in bed and sleep and maybe watch an episode or ten of your favourite TV show? Well, that's been my life for the last few months. Not only have I been sick - which is very rare - I've also been feeling sad and depressed and there really isn't much I can do to fix it. Except maybe be with my friends. I'm always happiest when I'm with my friends (or my dogs, but I don't want to seem strange to you). we laugh and talk and have a good time. I know they will always be there for me and I love that more than anything. They are important to me and I know people say that you won't be friends with the people you know when you're young, but I want these people to be in my life forever. They encourage me and stop me from doing stupid things (which I do often) and they listen when I really need someone to talk to. Friends are your unofficial family and I love them so much. I am so grateful to have them there for me. We hung out yesterday - which feels like forever since we last did - and it was a lot of fun. We went to the movies and then danced (not in a club, we were playing video games. We're not that cool). And we talked. It was simple but it was exactly what I needed to help me feel a bit better about my life. So, I just wanted to thank my friends for everything they've done and for putting up with someone who's so difficult. It warms my heart, it puts a smile on my face and it makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.

Summer.

Summer has been really boring. Extremely hot, though. I'm sitting here right now and my clothes are sticking to me from all the heat earlier today. It's starting to cool down, which is really nice, but it's still kind of hot. Nothing special has happened since my last post, but that's okay because I can just write one sentence and it would be good enough. There is one thing I do want to mention. And it's very important, so remember this. Internet friends are real friends. I've met lots of people online that I consider friends Just because we can't talk face to face does not mean we don't get along. Doesn't mean we don't have deep conversations. So please, if someone says that they have internet friends, don't say they don't count as friends. Because they do. They really do.

School Application.

So, turns out if I want to fill in the online application to the school I want to attend, I have to pay $50. And I have no money. None at all. Well, okay. I have $10. That's it. But I emailed someone and they said I could print out the application with my answers and then drop it off so I'm going to do that. I'm going to my friends house tomorrow so she can help me write my application to make it good so I can get accepted. But you wanna know what sucks? My mum tells everyone in my family that my sister is going to college and she's so proud of her and she hasn't told anyone yet that I'm planning on going too. My mum said that it's because she doesn't think I can do what I want to do; I want to act. Why is that so hard to understand? The world needs actors, and I can do it if I'm willing to work hard. And I will work hard. And them not believing in me makes me want to work harder (sometimes it makes me want to give up but I won'y).

Best friends

I don't think I've ever felt more blessed than I did today for my friends. We watched a movie today, a sad one, and it got us thinking about our school days. About how we're glad we didn't have cliques. We were glad that our bully problem wasn't so bad. Then we shared memories together. Camp in grade 7. Canoeing. Archery. How a popular girl was our friend. Just proper funny moments. Then we started talking about people we never liked it school. Friend: I think she was only mean because she was so short. It was surprisingly fun. But then we got into how my friend felt so bad because she was bullied. I mentioned my depression. I told them how I felt bad when no one believed me. I felt even worse when they made fun of the fact that 'I thought I had depression'. They did give me helpful things. Then we talked some more. Then I told them something I've only told one other person. I told them that I used to cut myself. They listened to everything and said they were so incredibly proud of me for stopping and told me I was strong. It made me feel good. But I wanted to cry. Yes, I'm emotional. But it brought back memories and feelings I had when I was doing that and it made me feel bad again. Anyways, I was just thankful that they didn't judge me and I am so happy that I could have friends like that around me and will support me and lead me on the right path. So, even though you'll never see this, my friends, you are two of the most important people in my entire life and I never want to lose you both. Thank you and I love you.